military industrial complex blues

dear friend,

I just got the war-time blues again. I have been living in the cool shade of denial, y de repente, the burning rays of awareness and globalism just pierced down and burned me bad. Just bad enough to injure my drive and motivation, security and positivity. Not bad enough to stop me in my tracks, just enough to throw me for a loop and dispize all that I see alrededor de mi. los milagros y los arcoiris ahora me parecen fake rotted garbage and festering wounds. Forever searching of my true fight. Where is my fight? It is not just in finding a beautiful, sustainable, organic, supportive community. Those things are all so pure and peaceful, but now the rage has already been planted in me. I can't just simmer down and docile. I gotta seguir luchando.

de verdad, me encuentras un poco deprimido.